I'm waxing poetic this evening so I want to post this thought:
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.
You are not alone. There are those who stand.
Luke 11:11-13 -- “Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”
John says that perfect love casts out fear. Jesus' love is perfect and it is surrounding you.
2 Corinthians 5:17 -- Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old things have passed away; behold, new things have come.
Practical atheists are people who are Christian in name, but act as if they don't know God. They may act kind, and be nice in public, but deep down they only do it for themselves and other humans. So, what does a Christian life look like? A Christian life is one that is changed because God is there.